Choosing to wait

When someone leaves someone, someone is naturally left behind. It is not the greatness of the one who left to have left, it is the greatness of the one that is left behind, to move forward with hope in his mind.

On that some day

And someone shall accept us. As we come on the day destined.

Associative Memory

Whenever we see something or someone, interact with someone, read something or do something, we relate that experience to the things we have already known and experienced. This is associative memory. Even when old, we'll think of our childhood when we think of our childhood friends. We might even think of things that might have been. Possibilities. Expectations. Unfulfilled desires. It might pain too. But that is all as much part of life as everything else.

Things happen only when they are supposed to happen. They way they are meant to happen. It isn't even a matter of waiting. We can only but enjoy each moment as it comes to look into our eyes, leaving just sense in us that it has been, and brush past as if it had never been and yet always remain.

Clean Slate...so we wish...

Eternal love and wait and suffering. They all seem to be bound together for eternity. It seems to me that most people would agree that we do love who we love, and we end up loving them forever. Movies like Eternal Sunshine Of A Spotless Mind and Vanilla Sky just tell me that.

Why is it so painfull to let go? Or to love someone else? Maybe what we desire for after a relationship is not another relationship, more beautifull or not, what we wish is for the feeling that the previous one had never existed and we had a clean slate.

Who experiences your moods swings?

"Marge, it takes two to lie. One to lie and one to listen."
Homer Simpson

Are you impulsive?
Do your moods swings swing way faster than most people can predict?
Do people keep asking you if you're feeling ok?
Do people have a hard time being sure about what you think?
Right, you are the unpredictable moody i'm talking about. Do you realize how difficult it is to keep up with your moods? Do you understand the position of someone who is trying to be comfortable around you? Just relax will you? Control your moods for a while. It isn't all the difficult. Try? And yeah, just let people know what you're thinking. At least those who are eager to know. Please.

Ever suffered the diease called Confusion?

What is the cure for confusion? Is there any? When we just dont know. When we just can't decide. When we are just not sure...

Our decisions are always based on some judgement some risk taking. Do we really behave in exact ways as we think we might. Never really happens. We're equally unpredictable as we think others are. And our decisions should keep that in mind as well.

What we want today we might not want it later. We think that a certain project would change our lives. And it may not prove to be so powerful. We expect that missing on something will cause us to lag in life, and it might not. What we think we might not be able to do without may not really matter so much in the end.

Same goes for relationships, today we're waiting for somebody and we may just wait too long. We hope that that person would love us someday like we love them. We hope that someday that somebody would realize how much we love him. Maybe we should just keep on going and wait for things to come along instead of waiting in one place and waiting for things to come our way. We have just one life. We have just this much time. How long can we wait for that happy shine?